Perhaps one of the most frustrating things for me to deal with is doubt. Doubt is what keeps me up at night worrying about things I have no control over. I know this, but can do nothing to curb it. That’s what makes it so frustrating to me. Let me just clarify, my doubts are not over whether God exists. My doubts are over my present situation.
My doubts cover a wide spectrum. Am I still called to work in a church? If so, why can’t I find a job? Did I make the right choice in going to seminary? Why am I going through this? (I call this my Job complex.)
And then, there’s my least favorites, the “What if’s…” What if we had never moved out here? What if I had done something differently?
So, what do we do with doubts? I think the first thing that needs to be done is to name them. Get them out in the open and examine them. We might put the doubts back when we’re done, but we might be able to overcome those doubts. Some doubts stem from the irrational fears we have. For me, that’s not being able to provide for my family.
All this speaks to trusting God. The author of Proverbs:
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart;
don’t rely on your own intelligence.
6 Know him in all your paths,
and he will keep your ways straight.
(Proverbs 3:5-6, CEB)